Thursday, November 6, 2014

3 Tips to Deepen Your Faith



Try these techniques from the Women's Devotional Bible to help you reap the benefits of daily prayer.


You have a busy schedule, and sometimes it seems impossible for you to cultivate a regular devotional habit. But you can have a meaningful daily devotional life.
Here are three tips that may help you:

1. Set aside a block of time each day to spend with God. 
Think of this as a scheduled appointment–something that can’t be postponed or rescheduled. Guard your time with God. Set your alarm clock fifteen minutes earlier in the morning or go to bed fifteen minutes later in the evening.


You can have your devotional during your lunch break, while waiting to pick up your kids or before you go to bed. Decide that spending time with God is the most important thing you can do for yourself and others. And remember, God is available anytime!

2. Joyfully look forward to your time with God.
Come prepared with your Bible, a notebook and a pen. Pray before you begin, asking God to give you wisdom and insight into His Word. Ponder and pray about the passages you don’t quite understand. Mull over concepts that are new to you or that don’t fit your preconceived ideas.


Throughout the day call to mind what you've read so that it takes root in your heart. Ask your pastor or a mature believer any questions you may have.

3. Develop any or all of the following devotional habits:
  • Memorize relevant Scripture passages.
  • Praise God for who He is and for what He has done and is doing.
  • Listen in silence for God’s voice.
  • Sing songs of praise and thanksgiving.
  • Journal your thoughts, insights and answered prayers.
This article is excerpted from The Women's Devotional Bible.

Thursday, October 23, 2014

Praying with Confidence

 

But I trusted in Your steadfast love; my heart shall rejoice in Your salvation. Psalm 13:5
"You better come look at this.” My husband Charlie’s voice was tense. The river on which we live flooded, driving waves into our parking lot. The storm turned docks into tinder. We’d already moved our car to higher ground, but it was a frightening sight.

On the top floor, we were safe from flooding, but if the water got into the building, the furnace and utilities would stop functioning. Many people evacuated, but we heard that the city’s storm shelter had a broken generator so we stayed.

It was the first crisis in our life together where I saw Charlie anxious and I felt calm. I had been praying differently, in what I call “Lynn Holm style.” Lynn is the only person I know who completely lives his faith.
He’s been a missionary in Africa, a pastor, a father, a husband, and an all-around adventurer in the Lord. He is never afraid because he is never without God’s presence. He once told me that when winter storms threaten his home and life in Minnesota, he simply tells God that it is His home to do with as He will.

This kind of prayer initially seemed impossible. But I realized that I didn’t have to be Lynn in order to pray like him. And so I took Charlie’s hand. “Dear Lord, please watch over this, Your home, which You’ve given us to live in. Please keep us, Your children, safe, protected, and warm. Amen.”
Father, let me pray with confidence in Your plan.

By Marci Alborghetti

This devotion is excerpted from Daily Guideposts 2015.

Thursday, October 16, 2014

Pray for Bold Goals




Use these five steps to help you reach your dreams.



By Richard H. Schneider

Be strong and of good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the Lord thy God is with thee whithersoever thou goest. Joshua 1:9

Since man first cowered before the dark unknown, God has understood our timidity. That’s why He Himself goes with us. He wants us to be bold for Him, to live our lives to full fruition, to fulfill His plan in the world. Keeping that in mind, try these five steps to boldness.


1. Is it right with God?
We can attain conviction by first seeking God’s will in all that we wish to accomplish. Ask God if your goal is right. If you sense affirmation, then take the next step.


2. Be bold and mighty forces will come to your aid.
Commit yourself by biting off more than you think you can chew, rather than letting fear of failure stop you from trying at all. Those “mighty forces”? They are energy, skill, sound judgment, creativity, even physical strength and endurance. Boldness creates a state of emergency to which these powers respond.


3. Don’t look over your shoulder.
If you do, as baseball’s great Satchel Paige said, “You may see something gaining on you.” That something could be the fears you overcame at the start. So keep up your momentum.


4. Make the leap of faith.
In Jesus’ parable of the talents, the servant who buried his employer’s money was criticized for failing to put it to use. The servant’s alibi sums up too many people’s attitude toward life: “I was afraid to risk it.”


5. Don’t duck the spotlight.
The next time you hear a call for volunteers or see someone who needs assistance or spot a wrong that needs righting, strive for the boldness that shouts: “Thy will be done, on earth as it is in heaven!”



This article is excerpted from Guideposts Daily Planner 2015.

Wednesday, October 15, 2014

Guest Blog Post: The Tree of Knowledge of       Good and Evil

By Sheila L. Jackson


God is looking for pure-hearted people that will stand on His Word and not live by the world’s standards of love, which says, “I’ll love you as long as you love me.” With all the hustle and bustle in today’s society, people are doing what is right in their own sight; living Holy takes on a whole new meaning. We lie, backbite and stir up trouble all in the name of Jesus. We profess to be saved, washed in the blood of Jesus, but can anyone see it? It is not enough to just go to church, jump and shout and get a good-for-the-moment feeling, but living holy is how we should live every day. What does it profit us to go to church and get nothing out of it? We all know people that are like this—saved and sanctified on Sundays and full another spirit during the weekdays. Is this the way God intended for His children to be?

Yes, Adam and Eve failed in the garden, but God left a new covenant, a new agreement that makes us new creatures in Him; we have no excuses for doing evil because our sins have been taken away by the blood of Jesus. He makes us new. If our behavior does not portray what a Christian should be, then pray to God that He will help mold and shape us into His image. With the Savior’s help, we do not have to remain the same.
No longer can the behavior of the first humans’ insolvency be used as a cop-out for our lack of self-control. The older generation says it best: “Every tub has to set on its own bottom.” We are responsible for what we do in our bodies, and every person will have to give an account, good or bad.

Author Bio
Sheila L. Jackson lives with her family in Shreveport, Louisiana. She is an anointed speaker, teacher, and writer that utilize her gifts to carry the Word of God to those in need of spiritual soul food. Sheila has penned two, inspirational non-fiction books, The Enemy Within and Through the Eyes of God. She has also written several inspirational and social articles for a local newspaper and magazine.

Genre: Christian Inspirational Non-fiction

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Thursday, September 11, 2014

Are You Secretly Living With Domestic Violence?


By Sheila L. Jackson



Domestic violence affects thousands of women and young teenage girls each year.  Why do so many women live with it, instead of moving out and getting help?


  1. Financial reasons (They believe that they cannot make it on their own).
  2. Many stay because of their children
  3. Fear
  4. They confuse it with love
  5. Many are brainwashed into believing that no one else will want them



When domestic violence occurs, in many cases people will say, “What did she do to make him so angry?” Whatever the situation maybe, no one deserves to be beaten, kicked, or choked. But domestic violence is not just physical; it can be mental.

We should think before we act, because violence can show up in the best of us. It affects the young and the old, black or white, as well as the rich and the poor. Domestic violence does not discriminate. Just turn on your televisions, you will see that high profile athletes and celebrities are battling the same issues of abuse. Christian or non-Christian, this illness will rear its ugly head in the least likely of places.

Yes, thousands of women are being abused each year by their boyfriends and spouses, but what about men? Although many of them will never reveal that they have experienced abuse from their female counterparts, it does exist. Violence is never acceptable, whether from male or female.

If you are being abused, remove yourself from the situation and get help now, because your life is at stake. Love doesn’t hurt.

                                                                                             1 Corinthians 13:4-8 (NIV)
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.




National Domestic Violence Hotline
1-800-799-SAFE (7233)
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1-800-787-3224 TTY




Friday, September 5, 2014

THE WORLD OF SPORTS “WHEN THE GILTS AND GLAMOUR ENDS”



By: Sheila L. Jackson



Statistics shows that after an athlete retires from sports, he or she will file for bankruptcy within five years after retirement. Why such a substantial loss in finances so soon? Because, of failure to prepare and educate themselves of the people around them and also their lavish taste for the finer things in life after the game has ended.


Many of these athletes are broke; not because they are dumb, but that they made dumb decisions about the people they entrusted with their finances. They must learn that after they have signed those million dollar contracts that they cannot help everybody that they grew up with. They must be wise and investigate the people that are handling their finances, as well as the large entourages that cling to them.


 I think that Bill Cosby gave the best advice when he told Oprah and the kids that worked on his show (The Cosby Show), “To keep an eye on your own money.”


You must be able to trust those that are handling your finances. Money has a way of bringing out greed and wickedness in those who are supposed to be looking out for your best interest. And athletes are not exempt. Mike Tyson, Evander Holyfield, Latrell Sprewell, Jack “The Ripper” Clark, Hall of fame quarterback Johnny Unitas, Dorothy Hamill, and many others.


One NBA athlete confessed that he was making 3.5 million dollars a year and did not have a place to live. He confessed that when his game was over at the Staple Center, he would stay behind and sleep because he had no home to go to. Poor judgement on his part landed him in this predicament.The Bentley's, groupies,  expensive clothes, and wild parties contributed to his financial ruin.

Latrell Sprewell was in his final season of a $62-million, five-year contract and was offered a contract extension for close to $30 million dollars for three seasons and still had his yacht repossessed. The comment he made was, “I've got my family to feed.”  One would think that his family’s welfare should have taken precedence over spending large amounts money on a yacht.


Will these athletes ever learn or will they continue to travel down the road to financial ruin? One would hope that they learn from the mistakes of those who have gone down the road of financial ruin before them.



Sunday, August 17, 2014





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Sunday, April 27, 2014

Guest Post: Shelly Ellis, author of, Another Woman's Man







Shelly Ellis Bio:

Shelly Ellis began her romance writing career when she became one of four finalists in a First-Time Writers Contest at 19 years old. The prize was a publishing contract and having her first short-story romance appear in an anthology. She has since published more short stories, two novels, and was chosen as a finalist for 2012 African American Literary Award in the romance category. Shelly released the first book in her critically-acclaimed women’s fiction, Gibbons Gold Digger series in 2013. The latest book in the series, Another Woman’s Man, comes out May 2014.When she isn’t writing novels, or editing and writing articles for her day job as a magazine editor, she and her husband are chasing after their 1-year-old daughter and catering to their tabbie cat.Visit her at her web site www.shellyellisbooks.com, on facebook at http://www.facebook.com/shelly.ellis.524, and on twitter at @ellisromance.









Another Woman’s Man blurb:


The notorious gold digging Gibbons women of Chesterton, Virginia, are minding their own highly-paid business when second eldest sister, Dawn, is reunited with the one man she never dreamed she'd see again. . .

Dawn Gibbons is shocked when her long-lost father reappears in her life. Seriously ill, his dying wish is to reconnect with her. But for Dawn, it’s complicated—her wealthy father comes complete with jealous relatives—and a handsome young lawyer Dawn finds dangerously sexy. He’s dangerous because he’s engaged—to her newfound half-sister. One thing a Gibbons woman doesn't do is steal her sister's man. Yet for the first time, Dawn may care about love more than money. . .

Xavier Hughes isn't easily thrown, but the electricity between him and Dawn leaves him unsettled. And when his suspicious fiancée insists he investigate Dawn's background, it only pushes him closer to the one woman he should resist. Soon, holding back isn’t an option, and both Xavier and Dawn will have to face the consequences of breaking the family rules. 


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Chapter 1

(Unwritten) Rule No. 5 of the Gibbons Family Handbook:

Family always comes first—while men come somewhere between shoes and handbags.

He’s amazing!”
“I know! Isn’t he brilliant?”
“The show is wonderful! Just wonderful!”
If they only knew, Dawn Gibbons thought as she glanced around the crowded gallery.
She looked at the people strolling throughout the exhibition space, at the couples who stared at the canvases on the exposed brick walls and nodded in appreciation, and she wanted to give herself a toast. She hadn’t thought she would be able to pull this off, considering the limited amount of time she had to organize this exhibition, considering how much arm twisting she had to do to get tonight’s featured artist to just pick up a paintbrush and paint something! But she had done it. Despite all the obstacles she had faced, tonight had been a resounding success. Dawn didn’t toast herself, but she downed what was left of her Moët & Chandon and smiled.
“Great work, darling!” said Percy, the gallery’s owner, in his British accent as he sailed toward her.
He was wearing a leather jacket and faded jeans today—an outfit that was much too young for a man his age. His thinning gray hair was pulled back with a rubber band, leaving a knobby stub of hair at the end. The three top buttons of his silk shirt were open, revealing the wiry hairs on his pale chest. He wrapped a skinny arm around Dawn’s waist and gave her an affectionate squeeze.
“Thanks, Percy.” She wrinkled her nose at the overpowering smell of his cologne and nodded. “It did turn out well, didn’t it?”
“We should go somewhere after the show and celebrate, darling,” he whispered warmly as he leaned toward her ear. The smell of his cologne became five times stronger. The heat of his breath on her cheek almost singed her. “Maybe you’ll finally let me take you out to dinner.” His hand descended from her waist to her ass. He petted it gently—like he would a purring kitten—and winked one of his blue eyes at her. “What do you say?”
“Oh, you don’t have to do that.” She slowly removed Percy’s hand from her bottom. “But thank you for the offer.”
Percy was one of the few rich men in Dawn’s social circle whom she hadn’t dated, and quite frankly, she didn’t have any plans to ever date him. He was her boss! Her art and her work as gallery director were more important to her. Unfortunately, Percy wasn’t accustomed to women turning him down, which probably made him even more eager to get her to dinner and finally get into her pants. She was a challenge to him now, the Mt. Everest that he had yet to climb. But she desperately wished he would take his mountain boots and pick and climb somewhere else.
“I should go around the room and mingle.” Dawn patted his arm soothingly, hoping to soften the blow of her rejection. “You know, make sure everyone is enjoying themselves and—more importantly—buying the artwork.”
“Yes. Yes, of course, darling.” His smile tightened, barely masking his disappointment. “Mingle! Mingle! Don’t let me keep you.”
She turned and walked away, handing off her empty glass to one of the waiters who strolled around the room with Lucite trays covered with hors d’oeuvres and champagne glasses.
Her sister Lauren’s restaurant Le Bayou Bleu was catering the event with Southern-style, high-end cuisine that all the patrons couldn’t seem to get enough of. In fact, she heard whispers from the staff that they were dangerously close to running out of food.
Lauren couldn’t be here tonight herself to supervise. She was still on maternity leave and was at home with her infant son, Crisanto Jr., but Dawn’s other two sisters had shown their support by coming to the event. Her very pregnant sister, Stephanie, had waddled through an hour ago. She had purchased one of the smaller pieces on display before leaving the gallery with a mouthful of shrimp. Dawn’s eldest sister Cynthia had left fifteen minutes later. She said she had a date with a very wealthy construction company owner and had to run home to change clothes.
“He’s handsome, charming, and he pulled in seven figures last year, girl. You never know,” Cynthia had remarked. “He could be the one!”
By “the one” Dawn assumed Cynthia really meant number three, since this would be Cynthia’s third husband if she managed to get this one down the aisle. Though, truth be told, Dawn had little room to talk herself. She had been married twice before also, continuing the long tradition in her family of women who married often and divorced just as frequently. But unlike Cynthia, Dawn had little interest in finding a third husband.
Dawn had been doing some soul-searching and self-examination lately with all the changes that were going on around her. Two of her sisters had fallen in love. One had recently had a baby and the other had one on the way. Dawn felt like she had reached a point in her life when obtaining a rich husband wasn’t as important to her anymore. Besides, rich men were a lot like the temperamental artists whose work she featured at her gallery. They both required coddling and their egos had to be constantly fed. She didn’t have time to cater to both right now.
Dawn continued her path across the gallery, adjusting the cowl neck of her maroon top and the hem of her asymmetrical wool skirt as she went.
“Congratulations, dearest,” said Madison McGuire, a small-town girl who made good by marrying one of the most powerful lobbyists in Washington, D.C. Now the wealthy D.C. socialite patronized the local art scene.
“Thank you for coming, Maddie!” Dawn said, leaning forward and lightly kissing the air beside Maddie’s rouged cheek.
“Oh, I wouldn’t miss it for the world!” Maddie exclaimed. She took a sip from the champagne glass. “The exhibit is fascinating . . . and of course, I have to do my research!”
“Research? You know, a little birdie told me that you’re thinking about buying Sawyer Gallery, but I wasn’t sure if that was just a rumor.”
Maddie laughed. “Oh, it’s not a rumor. I can assure you of that! Martin Sawyer is ready to move on to a new venture, and I told him I’d happily take the gallery off his hands. We signed the paperwork a month ago. I plan to hold our grand opening sometime in the spring.” She leaned toward Dawn and whispered, “Do you think you would be interested in changing venues? I’d love to have you at the helm of my gallery.”
Dawn glanced across the room at Percy, who was idly groping some bouncy young blonde as he stood among a circle of friends.
Maddie’s offer was certainly tempting. Unlike with Percy, Dawn wouldn’t have to worry about Maddie patting her ass and trying to seduce her on a weekly basis. Plus, Dawn had always admired Maddie. If there was nothing a Gibbons girl loved more, it was a fellow woman who used her wiles and her wits to climb the socioeconomic ladder, a woman who knew how to “get her hustle on” but to do it with grace and style.
But Dawn liked the control Percy gave her over the gallery. She loved her staff. She was comfortable here.
Dawn sighed. “I don’t think I would, Maddie, but thank you for the offer.”
Maddie glanced in Percy’s direction. He and the blonde were now making kissy faces at each other, making Dawn cringe.
“Are you sure?” Maddie asked again. “I heard Percy can be quite the handful.”
You have no idea, Dawn thought. She hesitated then nodded. “I’m sure.”
“Oh, well. It was worth a try.” Maddie waved her hand. “Always good to see you, Dawn.”
“You too,” Dawn replied, continuing to make her way across the cavernous space. She stopped now and then to talk to and kiss the cheeks of a few patrons, but she soon noticed two men she hadn’t seen before. They were standing near one of the floor-to-ceiling canvases on the far side of the gallery. They drew her attention because their staid business attire made them stand out like sore thumbs from the rest of the flamboyantly dressed art crowd.
The shorter of the two stood in front of one of the paintings, gazing at it admiringly. The elderly gentleman was dark-skinned and very distinguished looking with his navy blazer, tan slacks, white dress shirt, and penny loafers. He leaned his weight against a bamboo cane as he bent forward to read the plaque near the painting.
Beside him was a man who was almost a foot taller and was several decades younger. He was less engrossed in the artwork than his companion. Instead, he stared in amazement at the people in the gallery as if he were watching circus performers. His honey-colored skin and short dark hair was in striking contrast to his pale gray eyes that she could see distinctly even at this distance. He was handsome, though a little too straitlaced for her taste.
Accountant? she thought as she scanned his perfect black suit, sensible blue tie, and starched white shirt. No, he’s probably an actuary, I bet. Any person who dresses that boring has to be in insurance.
She slowly walked toward them. Boring or not, they could be prospective buyers—wealthy suburbanites with a lot of cash to spend who wanted to impress their friends with the discovery of a hot new artist.
“Hello,” Dawn said. She extended her hand. “My name is Dawn Gibbons. Is this your first time at our gallery?”
She offered her hand to the older gentleman first. He hesitated before taking it.
“Hello,” he said softly, finally shaking her hand. His wrinkled face filled with warmth. “It’s a . . . a pleasure to finally meet you, Dawn,” he began nervously. “I-I had debated on coming here tonight. I couldn’t work up the nerve at first until my friend, Xavier, here,” he nodded toward the younger man who stood silently at his side, “agreed to come with me. But I really wanted to . . . Oh, listen to me ramble. I should introduce myself first.” He cleared his throat. “My . . . My name is Herbert Allen.”
“Pleased to meet you, Mr. Allen.” She nodded in greeting. “Thank you for coming to our gallery.” She pointed toward the painting. “So tell me, are you interested in this piece?”
He paused and gazed at her quizzically. “You’ve . . . you’ve never heard of me before?”
Dawn’s smile faded. She shook her head. “No, I’m sorry. I haven’t.”
He looked deflated.
Now put on the spot, Dawn quickly flipped through her mental Rolodex, trying to recall the name, Herbert Allen, but she came up with a blank. She hoped he wasn’t someone important. Percy would be royally PO’d if he found out she had offended one of his friends.
Suddenly, something came to mind. She snapped her fingers. “Oh, I remember now! I’m so sorry. Tonight has been so crazy and I’ve been so frazzled!” She laughed and patted his shoulder, turning back on the charm. “Herbert Allen. Yes, I remember. We met at the spring benefit last year, didn’t we?”
He and the younger man exchanged a look. He then  shook his head. “No, we didn’t meet at a spring benefit. In fact, we’ve never met before. I had . . . I had hoped your mother had mentioned me, at least.” He shrugged. “But I guess not.”
Dawn frowned. “My mother?”
He took a deep breath and gazed into her eyes. “I’m your father, Dawn.”
“What?” Her gaze shifted between the two men. “I’m sorry. Is . . . is this some kind of a joke?”
“No, it’s not a joke. I really am your father.”
He took a step toward her and she took a hesitant step back, trying desperately to process what she was hearing.
“Dawn, I wanted to have a chance to—”
“Wait. Wait! Stop! Back up!” She held up her hands. Her heart thudded like a snare drum in her chest. “What are you talking about? What do you mean you’re my father? I . . .” She took a deep breath, fighting to regain her calm. “I haven’t seen or heard from my father in thirty-seven years and you . . . you just show up out of the blue like this! You just blurt this out!”
His eyes lowered to the hardwood floor. “I know and I’m sorry. I didn’t want to do it this way, but I don’t have—”
“No!” She furiously shook her head. “No, I’m not . . . I’m not doing this.”
Dawn turned around and walked away from him. She angrily strode toward the gallery’s revolving glass doors, ignoring the curious stares that followed her as she passed. She felt as if she had been ambushed. Was he really her father? If so, why did he choose tonight of all nights to announce himself? Why hadn’t he picked up a phone and called? Couldn’t he have sent a letter? This was ridiculous! She was practically trembling with anger and confusion. She had to get out of there.
“Darling, where are you going?” Percy called after her, but she ignored him.
Dawn stepped into the gallery’s foyer. It was decorated for the holiday season with garlands, holly, and twinkling Christmas lights, but she certainly wasn’t in the holiday mood right now. Just before she reached the doors, she felt a strong hand clamp around her wrist. She whipped her head around and looked up. When she did, she was staring into the gray eyes of the wannabe actuary. His warm touch and gaze instantly made her tingle, catching her by surprise. It was a feeling she didn’t want right now. She yanked her wrist out of his grasp.
“Can you hear him out?” he asked. “It took a lot of courage for him to come here tonight!”
“Courage?” She glared up at him. “Is that what you call it? Why didn’t he find that same damn courage ten or twenty years ago? Where the hell has he been all this time? Why is he doing this here? Why now?”
His stern expression softened and once again she was struck by how handsome he was.
“Look, Herb knows that he hasn’t been the best father to you. Believe me. But your mother didn’t exactly make it easy for him these past years.”
Dawn narrowed her eyes at the mention of her mother. She crossed her arms over her chest. “Excuse me?”
“Look, all that it’ll take is ten minutes of your time. He came all this way. Just . . . Just let him explain himself. Please? He has a lot that he would like to get off his chest and he doesn’t have much time left to do it.”
“What? What do you mean?”
“Your father is sick, Dawn. He has cancer . . . and the prognosis isn’t good.”
Dawn’s arms dropped to her sides. She stared at him in disbelief.
God, this was a lot to take in! Here she was in the middle of an exhibition and her apparent long-lost father had suddenly popped up out of nowhere, and now she had the added shock of finding out he was dying from cancer. What was she going to find out next? That a spaceship had landed outside the gallery? Dawn closed her eyes and raised her hands to her now-throbbing temples. She desperately wished her sisters were here. She could use one of their shoulders to lean on right now.
            “Will you give him a chance?” wannabe actuary asked quietly. “Hear what he has to say?”
            Dawn opened her eyes. She was still furious, but part of her worried that she would regret this moment if she walked out the gallery and didn’t come back.
“Fine.”
She then walked back across the gallery with wannabe actuary trailing behind her.
            As she crossed the room, she examined the older man more closely. He had skin the same shade as her own and large dark eyes she could have easily inherited. Those dark eyes now gazed at her worriedly.
Her mother had never talked about her father—or any of Dawn’s sisters’ fathers, for that matter.
“As long as he takes care of his financial obligations to you, what difference does it make whether you see him?” Yolanda Gibbons would ask when her daughters were younger and they openly wondered why they had not received so much as a birthday card or telephone call from any their fathers. “We’re important,” Yolanda would insist. “Not a man who knows absolutely nothing about you.”
Though Dawn had longed for her father in her younger years, she had gradually accepted her mother’s opinion on the issue as she got older. If Dawn’s father really had cared, he would have tried to contact her. He would have moved heaven and earth to let her know he wanted her and loved her. Now as she watched the man claiming to be her father take uncertain steps toward her, she knew there was no real explanation he could offer for his absence all these years. But she would listen. She would give him his ten minutes then send him on his way.
“Thank you for coming back,” he said gently. He leaned most of his weight on his cane. “I apologize for how I did this. I didn’t want to tell you this over the phone, and I didn’t know how to—”
            “Not here,” she said firmly, cutting him off. “We can talk in my office.”
            She walked around him and led him toward a corridor filled with a series of rooms at the back of the gallery. She paused at her office door and turned. “In here,” she said, motioning toward the doorway.
            He glanced up at the younger man.
            “I’ll take it from here, Xavier,” he said. “Thank you.”
            Xavier looked at Herbert, then at Dawn. Their eyes met. She cocked her eyebrow in challenge. Was he going to insist he come along?
After some time, Xavier finally nodded. “Okay, I’ll . . . I’ll wait here.”
            Herbert continued down the corridor.
            “But call me if you need me!” Xavier shouted out to him.
            Herbert nodded and waved him away. “Don’t worry. I’ll be fine.”
“Is he your bodyguard or something?” she whispered when Herbert stood next to her.
She still eyed the actuary guardedly. He equally scrutinized her from the other end of the hall.
            “Close,” Herbert said with a soft chuckle. “He’s my lawyer . . . well, corporate counsel for my company.”
            Lawyer, huh?
Well, she guessed he wasn’t an actuary after all.
            Dawn ushered Herbert into her small eight- by eight-foot office and shut the door behind him. She had kept the space simple in its décor with an industrial design desk and leather chairs. A bookshelf was on the right wall. The only adornment in the office was the several paintings by the gallery’s many artists and a few works of hers.
            “Have a seat,” she said, gesturing to one of the chairs opposite her desk.
            She sat down in her rollaway desk chair and watched as he carefully lowered himself into his. When he sat down, he let out a barely stifled groan.
            He does look sick, she thought as she looked at his slightly ashen face.
“Dawn,” he began, “I understand that you’re angry with me, but I didn’t want to put this off another day. I’ve been putting off coming to see you for weeks now.”
            “Why?”
            He lowered his eyes. “Because I know it’s something I should have done years ago and I feel like such a . . . such a bastard for taking so long to do it, sweetheart.”
            Sweetheart? It was odd hearing a stranger call her that.
He hesitated. “When you were a little girl, I had thought about seeing you. But your mother and I did not part amicably, to be honest. I allowed my feelings toward your mother to taint whatever possibility we had of developing a relationship. I was . . . I was wrong for doing that.”
            Dawn didn’t say anything in response. What was there to say?
“I didn’t find out about you until after you were born,” he continued. “My lawyer at the time got a letter from your mother stating that she had a baby and that she was seeking child support. I was . . .” He paused again. “I was very shocked . . . and angry. You see, Yolanda and I hadn’t dated for very long.”
“Long enough to make a baby, though,” Dawn interjected, leaning back in her chair.
“That is true. I’m not denying that. But again, we had dated only briefly. We were together for only a month or so and then I was transferred to my company’s satellite office in Europe. I never got the chance to really know her. Then my lawyer found out a bit more about her . . . her background. The marriages . . . How she dated wealthy men almost exclusively. When I found out, I felt . . . manipulated . . . duped, in a way. Like she had used my affections and—”
“Trapped you?” Dawn finished for him. She rolled her eyes. “Look, if you’re here to talk shit about my mom, we can end this conversation right now.” She began to rise from her chair. “Thank you, Mr. Allen, for your visit, but—”
“No, no! That’s not what I intended. I just . . .” He took a deep breath. “I just wanted you to know why I did what I did. There’s no excuse for it, but that was my thinking at the time. Please, Dawn. Please sit down.”
Her nostrils flared. She slowly lowered herself to her seat, crossed her legs, and adjusted the hem of her skirt.
“Sweetheart, I didn’t come here to insult your mother or to make you angry. I came here to try to make amends. I’m not well. I have . . . I have prostate cancer, and despite my doctors’ best efforts, it’s . . . it’s spread.”
“I’m sorry to hear that,” she said quietly, and she meant it.
He cleared his throat. “When you’re faced with an illness, you start to reexamine your life and the mistakes you’ve made. Not building a relationship with you was one of my biggest mistakes, and I would like to rectify that if I can.”
“How?”
“I’d like to get to know you, Dawn, and to spend time with you, if you will allow it. Maybe we can have dinner together or spend a day or two together. Whatever you would like to do, I’m willing to do it.”
Dawn closed her eyes again. She didn’t want to be cruel, but this was too much, way too much. She hadn’t even known this man existed until fifteen minutes ago. Now he wanted to build a relationship. She opened her eyes.
“Maybe. But can I . . . can I take some time to think about this?”
He gazed at her for a long time then finally nodded. “Sure, I understand.”
But he didn’t look like he understood. He looked disappointed.
Dawn rose from her chair and he followed suit. She walked him to her office door. When she opened the door, he turned and looked at her.
“Even . . . even if we don’t see one another again, Dawn, it was a pleasure to finally meet you,” he said, offering her his hand.
She shook it. “It was a pleasure to meet you too, Mr. Allen.”
He gave a small smile. “Please, you don’t have to call me Dad, but at least call me Herb.”
“It was a pleasure to meet you, Herb.”
He opened his jacket and handed her a business card. “If you do wish to meet again, here is my number. I do hope . . . I do hope to hear from you, Dawn. I sincerely do.”
“Thank you,” she said, taking his card.
She watched as he stepped into the corridor. He was still gazing at her as she shut the door behind him. When the lock clicked, she fell against the wooden slab and let out a pent-up breath she didn’t know she had been holding all this time.